To be fully alive, fully human, and completely awake is to be continually thrown out of the nest. To live fully is to be always in no-man’s-land, to experience each moment as completely new and fresh.
It’s in my blood to throw myself from the nest regularly. I reach a crescendo of discomfort with familiarity and then I must “go”. I can’t remember the last time the compulsion gnawed at my soul so vigorously. Clearly it had been way too long. On September 3rd I set off on a 9 day journey across 1830.5 miles of Oregon. The primary goal was to “go out there” to places that I’d never been or places not many people go. When people imagine Oregon they may see evergreen trees bathed in rain and single origin coffee but the reality is over half of Oregon is high desert. My sights were set on sagebrush and exotic terrane.
Note: text in italics is directly from my travel journal. Normal text was added post trip.
Day 1: Portland to Newberry National Volcanic MonumentTook my time driving to Paulina Lake. Made stops at Welches, OR for coffee and picked some foliage at mile marker 77 for animation. Stopped at Peter Skene Scenic Viewpoint – a 300 ft. basalt cliff w/ the old bridge, and the concrete cast-in-place new bridge. Another mile or so down the road I took a 3 hour diversion to hike the Misery Ridge Loop Trail (counterclockwise) at Smith Rock. Amazing view of the whole central OR Cascade range. Took lots of pictures. A bunch of climbers doing the walls – looks scary!
When heading to/from Mt. Hood I always stop for coffee in Welches at Coffee Brewsters. It’s a ritual. Every journey begins with bean. I’d been thinking about what I wanted to creatively accomplish on the trip for several weeks before leaving, trying to reconnect with my desire to tell stories coupled with more work on my animation 10,950. I collected several bags of foliage in ziploc bags along the way, but the latest idea had me stopping every hour to collect material. That didn’t happen. I’m not sure why it didn’t, some force kept pushing me forward; looking, listening, feeling, watching, but not responding creatively in any way despite having all the tools on hand to do whatever come what may.
Misery Ridge is no joke. I recommend doing the counterclockwise route – the backside trail is steep and slippery with loose dry rocks. I passed a couple that had been climbing and they were descending in flip-flops! They were very unhappy that they couldn’t repel down. The hiking trails are well-marked and fairly graded. The climbing infrastructure available at Smith Rock is impressive and gave me pause. There are small huts around the perimeter with metal stretchers and crutches. Given the number of people climbing there mid-week I imagine the walls see their fair share of accidents.Made it into Paulina Lake after scarfing 2 plums and a half can of wasabi almonds and 2 water bottles in the car. I was hot and hungry after the hike, no food on the hike, and only 2 pints of water. Somehow it didn’t look like that big of a deal, ~3.5 miles or so. Picked out a campsite relatively close to the bathroom, whipped out stove and made steak with 2 pieces bread and some instant potatoes. Now enjoying a large glass of wine before hitting the comfy sack I made in the car. I’m sure i’ll sleep pretty well.
At just under 3.5 miles the Misery Ridge trail seems deceptively simple. In the excitement of starting the adventure I completely ignored the moisture sucking dry heat of the high desert, and the added challenge of increased elevation ~2,800 ft (873 m). While I had water with me, I forgot to pack extra snacks in my pack. No harm no foul, but I know better.
Food strategy on the trip was pretty simple. I loaded a small cooler with ice in the morning before leaving, and had a couple perishable items that I planned to eat the first couple days. I kept a “dry” bucket well stocked with non-perishable items. I left the option open to buy more ice & perishables along the way, but had enough food stocked to not have to make trips to the grocery.
A couple of bird-sharks took advantage of my dinner preparation to take a couple nibbles out of the bread on my waiting plate. They circled for a while until the sun finally went down. Food always tastes so much better outdoors, and that large glass of wine hit me like a ton of bricks! Paulina lake sits at 6,331 ft (1,930 m).Listened to two podcasts on the way down. The first was the philosophy of Maimonides. What is the “nature” of God as the not-plurality. Got me thinking about what I believe and what I don’t believe. What is the nature of my belief in the cosmic or collective consciousness? The second podcast was part 2 of a Hardcore History about World War II. What is the purpose of war? What is peace? Will the ubiquity of social media prevent all out annihilation? People across the world have faces now. We see and interact with their creativity. We are not just our leaders and elite. It’s anxiety inducing.
I packed my phone with a ton of podcasts knowing that radio would be sparse and countryfied. By the 2nd day I was sick of them, and only ended up listening to about 4 total for the entire trip. The nature of travel or stillness made up the remaining soundtrack. 1000 miles of rhythmic gravel clatter and dust eventually becomes part of the hum of “you”.
The running headlines prior to the trip was all war talk – Ukraine, ISIL, Syria, Iraq… Renewal of the cold war. Visceral. Destructive. Anxious. Barbaric.
Why is the positive “fluff” always pushed to the end? The positive stories are the ones that need to be told. The narrative of hate needs to be balanced with the narrative of good.Lots of bad dreams in the air – but the sleeping has been divine. Have no idea what time it is, but feeling the call of the sack! It was 59 degrees when I arrived, dunno how cold it’s supposed to get. Keep drinking water – you’re at altitude now. My heart rate knows it. Things to think about: the nature of my [not]spirituality
what peace means
what it means to adventure solo and why
The temperature in the car read 36 in the morning. The air was frosty. Always forget what being at elevation is like that first day. You’re lying there thinking why is my heart rate going so fast, and then ‘Oh yeah’.
The campground was blissfully uncrowded, it was all birds, busy squirrels and silence. The peace of the collective hum of nature going about its business.
I’ll touch on the ‘things to think about’ in future installments. Deep thinking takes time.Tomorrow or the next day I will take time to pause for art. Gonna go slow around Hart Mt. and Steens. I wanna hit Alvord on Sunday! Ok, think i’m gonna retire and watch some T.V. shows I’ve downloaded. Tomorrow – explore Newberry Crater!
Brought the laptop on the trip and only watched half of one show, and used it once on my hotel break. Craving peace. Craving quiet. Though I’ve turned down the media onslaught significantly I’ll still craving less noise. Less distraction.
Less is more, and I took way too much stuff.
– Part 2 of Going to No-Man’s-Land is coming shortly.